Just as a disclaimer for those of you who dont know me that well, I have the most random taste in music EVER. But from time to time I will post a list of stuff I like, and that I am currently listening to and usually singing along with ...badly...in my car.
I always recommend that you download them and give them a listen...or check out you tube, usually you can find the songs on you tube with some bullshit homemade slide show "music video" some random nobody in some backwoods state made and posted between 5 & 6th period at Loser Mc NoLife High School.
Anyway, here is my list of music that I currently am completely in love with, ENJOY!
Mandy Moore - In My Pocket
- You Remind Me
- Yo Yo (<---- i know this one sounds like a bubblegum pop bullshit song, its not. I mean, its from her second album so it still has its roots in pop...but its a good song.)
Incubus - Aqueous Transmission
Schuyler Fisk - Waking Life (odd way to spell the name Skylar...but whatever)
Hoku - Closer
David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over
New Found Glory - King of Wishful Thinking
- Don't You (Forget about Me)
- Crazy For You
- Stay (I Miss You)
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Silverstein - Apologize
Four Year Strong - Love Song
Daughtry - Poker Face
Yes, everything from New Found Glory down is covers of other songs, and they are done pretty well...in fact I think that Daughtry did a better job with Poker Face then Lady Blah Blah. Honestly, I dont understand why everything is so impressed with her....not that her songs havent been catchy, but she isnt an amazing talent, her music isnt unique or revolutionary, and she has the STUPIDEST NAME EVER. Lady GAGA??? really?? *ugh* but then again, sometimes music isnt meant to be meaningful... so whatever work it out.
Hope you all love the music, if not, whatever.
OH and by the way, if you hear anything you like, and think you have something I might like, please let me know! Post suggestions as comments, and I'll personally give you my feedback. :-)
July 29, 2009
July 27, 2009
Good Times
Well, I was in SD for two weeks, now Im back in the 805 for a week or so. So Ill be in the east end of Ventura at Amanda's house hangin out with her two kick ass dogs, Carly and Guinness. There will be pictures. :-)
**Special Private Note for someone special who totally knows who she is: you make my day brighter. I kinda feel like I might need you in my life. xoxo**
moving on...
okay...so I've been thinking lately that the gay community in California...specifically the Bear's little sector...is far too small. it makes me a little sick that I cant escape my ex no matter what I do. He is the only ex who lingers. Its not that I hate him. I dont. I just am not a big fan of what kind of person he has become. Im also not at a point where Im comfortable making jokes with him or bringing up our past relationship. I think he thinks we are friends. Good friends. and that everything with us is peachy and everything is perfect. WRONG. I am over him, Im not in love with him, havent been in a LONG time...but I never forgave him for what he did to me, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna let him think otherwise. Bottom line: seeing him makes my stomach hurt a lil bit, i cant explain it, its like...even though I care about him, and am SOMETIMES happy to see or hear from him.... whenever he is talked about, or I see him somewhere, or he texts me, or whatever...my immediate reaction is negative. A look of "ugh ew" comes to my face, my stomach gets that weird gross feeling, and I immediately wanna turn and walk away. But sometimes, that is just for a second or two then Im like "aw he had a nice comment to make on my facebook,isn't that nice of him." WEIRD> I dont know, he seems to have this idea that he is gonna come visit me in San Diego.... thats laughable. Its nice that he wants to. Obviously he wants to have a good healthy friendship with me, I just dont know if I can. Besides, its weird enough that we are ex's.... on top of that he has a bf, and did he think he was gonna bring his bf to my house?? cuz NO. thats not okay, and him coming without his bf, to visit his exbf...would be weird, if I were his bf I wouldnt be okay with that. Hell Im not okay with him coming to visit me in SD. OH and he asked if he could STAY AT MY HOUSE>... am I on glue? Is this happening? I dont think so ex boyfriend. no no. I cant give a valid reason, I cant explain why, but it feels VERY wrong to me. I think I may still have some hurt feelings, and disappointments, and maybe Im still a little mad at him...I dont know...I cant figure it out, so its just easier to avoid him, his existence, and just focus on ANYTHING else. Part of me feels bad for having such a natural negative reaction towards my ex....and the other part of me says "well if thats your natural reaction, go with it." \
I hate when I have these moments that I think about him or am forced to deal with him. ugh.
Anyway, on to bigger, longer, thicker, and harder things.... ;-)
So everything is okay for right now, just waiting for Sallie Mae Financial to confirm my student loan so money can come in hopefully before I DIE.
I got my bunny monsterz!!!!!!!! I named them Quintin and Foo-Foo-Cuddly-Poops
Pictures will happen dont worry. OH and Im thinking I might have a blog comic strip staring my bunny monsters. Yes I have too much time on my hands, but you never know, I may have just created the next icanhazcheezburger.com or Robot Chicken. So dont judge me.
OH and I highly recommend that you go out and buy "Punk goes Pop" buy both 1 and 2. SO FUN!
okay Im outtie bitches. love yer faces.
**Special Private Note for someone special who totally knows who she is: you make my day brighter. I kinda feel like I might need you in my life. xoxo**
moving on...
okay...so I've been thinking lately that the gay community in California...specifically the Bear's little sector...is far too small. it makes me a little sick that I cant escape my ex no matter what I do. He is the only ex who lingers. Its not that I hate him. I dont. I just am not a big fan of what kind of person he has become. Im also not at a point where Im comfortable making jokes with him or bringing up our past relationship. I think he thinks we are friends. Good friends. and that everything with us is peachy and everything is perfect. WRONG. I am over him, Im not in love with him, havent been in a LONG time...but I never forgave him for what he did to me, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna let him think otherwise. Bottom line: seeing him makes my stomach hurt a lil bit, i cant explain it, its like...even though I care about him, and am SOMETIMES happy to see or hear from him.... whenever he is talked about, or I see him somewhere, or he texts me, or whatever...my immediate reaction is negative. A look of "ugh ew" comes to my face, my stomach gets that weird gross feeling, and I immediately wanna turn and walk away. But sometimes, that is just for a second or two then Im like "aw he had a nice comment to make on my facebook,isn't that nice of him." WEIRD> I dont know, he seems to have this idea that he is gonna come visit me in San Diego.... thats laughable. Its nice that he wants to. Obviously he wants to have a good healthy friendship with me, I just dont know if I can. Besides, its weird enough that we are ex's.... on top of that he has a bf, and did he think he was gonna bring his bf to my house?? cuz NO. thats not okay, and him coming without his bf, to visit his exbf...would be weird, if I were his bf I wouldnt be okay with that. Hell Im not okay with him coming to visit me in SD. OH and he asked if he could STAY AT MY HOUSE>... am I on glue? Is this happening? I dont think so ex boyfriend. no no. I cant give a valid reason, I cant explain why, but it feels VERY wrong to me. I think I may still have some hurt feelings, and disappointments, and maybe Im still a little mad at him...I dont know...I cant figure it out, so its just easier to avoid him, his existence, and just focus on ANYTHING else. Part of me feels bad for having such a natural negative reaction towards my ex....and the other part of me says "well if thats your natural reaction, go with it." \
I hate when I have these moments that I think about him or am forced to deal with him. ugh.
Anyway, on to bigger, longer, thicker, and harder things.... ;-)
So everything is okay for right now, just waiting for Sallie Mae Financial to confirm my student loan so money can come in hopefully before I DIE.
I got my bunny monsterz!!!!!!!! I named them Quintin and Foo-Foo-Cuddly-Poops
Pictures will happen dont worry. OH and Im thinking I might have a blog comic strip staring my bunny monsters. Yes I have too much time on my hands, but you never know, I may have just created the next icanhazcheezburger.com or Robot Chicken. So dont judge me.
OH and I highly recommend that you go out and buy "Punk goes Pop" buy both 1 and 2. SO FUN!
okay Im outtie bitches. love yer faces.
July 22, 2009
So not how I thought it would be...
Well I've been in San Diego for a week and a half...and have seen two people, and it wasnt the people I thought. I guess everyone has a busy life, I just thought I would see friends. I saw Erin, who was an old friend from many years ago...she hasnt changed a bit which was refreshing but it was so good to see her. I saw my friend Rick and his Boyfriend at Pride, which was good. They are very nice.
I dont know. I think the problem is that Im so used to seeing my friends every day, and I have to get used to the idea that maybe that isnt what everyone does.
Im gonna keep an open mind about it, because I know everyone is different, but I need to put on my big boy underpants, and just go somewhere...somewhere social, and just sit. Maybe Ill meet people, make friends. Since I spent like everyday from age 18 to age 28 hanging with friends at Starbucks...maybe Ill give that a whirl. haha.
My friend Sergi is home from Spain, Im so glad he is home safe and had a great summer. He makes me smile.
This blog has had no structure. I just realized its kind of a ramble......awesome.
I dont know. I think the problem is that Im so used to seeing my friends every day, and I have to get used to the idea that maybe that isnt what everyone does.
Im gonna keep an open mind about it, because I know everyone is different, but I need to put on my big boy underpants, and just go somewhere...somewhere social, and just sit. Maybe Ill meet people, make friends. Since I spent like everyday from age 18 to age 28 hanging with friends at Starbucks...maybe Ill give that a whirl. haha.
My friend Sergi is home from Spain, Im so glad he is home safe and had a great summer. He makes me smile.
This blog has had no structure. I just realized its kind of a ramble......awesome.
July 12, 2009
Are you Gone Yet?
I have gotten this question alot. Mostly in jest but still, kinda seems like the longest goodbye ever....well okay except for Cher's farewell tour that's been going on since the 1800's.
Tomorrow Morning, around 10am...I will be leaving the 805, for the 619. I don't know how to feel. I will miss everyone, and be sad that they aren't nearby, but also excited for all the new possibilities that lay ahead for me.
I know I will be back pretty often since Im only 3 hours away, and I will see everyone, and my love for them will not change just as I hope their love for me will not change. Im not going to name names as to whom I will miss the most....only because I know alot of people and dont want anyone to think I wont miss them cuz they arent named. you bitches know I will miss you and ya'll know who you are.
:-)
I havent cried or been super depressed... yet. Ive seen Jessica, Jamie, and Amanda tear and get choked up... and i had to swallow that damn frog in my throat too... Im know I will cry if they all start crying... so I might as well be prepared for it now. hahaha.
Anyway, my facebook status was recently changed to a song lyric that was so appropriate that I couldnt believe it.
A few years ago when my dear friend Cathy moved to Oakland, she played a song for me and said "This is the song of your life. I cant explain it, but you are always the strongest image that appears in my head when I hear this song." She was right.
I wont include THE WHOLE SONG, cuz my laptop only has so much battery time left, but here are the parts that are the most about me, and what is on my facebook status:
"It's been two long years now, since the top of the world came crashing down, but Im gettin it back on the road now, and Im taking the long way....takin the long way around." <---a little over two years ago my world fell apart, I had a love that was stronger than anything I had ever felt, and he cheated on me, broke my heart, was cruel and heartless, and played stupid games...basically it was behavior deserving of beheading or public castration.....but alas, no one would do it. Anyway, that was when I decided that I refused to live my life in a small pond. It took me a very long time to get over him, and to figure out where I wanted my life to go, and even though I took the long way, Im finally moving on, literally, moving 3 hours away, to start my new life, while keeping that best parts and people of my old like close to my heart.
Anyway, next time I blog, it will be from San Diego. I may even include a video blog, if I can figure out how to get my camera and microphone to work simultaneously and record a video and how to post it. This could take a while.
Anyways, Im gonna finish my glass of plum loco wine, and sit by a fan c uz its hot as shit in this town right now.
Love to you all
Andru
Tomorrow Morning, around 10am...I will be leaving the 805, for the 619. I don't know how to feel. I will miss everyone, and be sad that they aren't nearby, but also excited for all the new possibilities that lay ahead for me.
I know I will be back pretty often since Im only 3 hours away, and I will see everyone, and my love for them will not change just as I hope their love for me will not change. Im not going to name names as to whom I will miss the most....only because I know alot of people and dont want anyone to think I wont miss them cuz they arent named. you bitches know I will miss you and ya'll know who you are.
:-)
I havent cried or been super depressed... yet. Ive seen Jessica, Jamie, and Amanda tear and get choked up... and i had to swallow that damn frog in my throat too... Im know I will cry if they all start crying... so I might as well be prepared for it now. hahaha.
Anyway, my facebook status was recently changed to a song lyric that was so appropriate that I couldnt believe it.
A few years ago when my dear friend Cathy moved to Oakland, she played a song for me and said "This is the song of your life. I cant explain it, but you are always the strongest image that appears in my head when I hear this song." She was right.
I wont include THE WHOLE SONG, cuz my laptop only has so much battery time left, but here are the parts that are the most about me, and what is on my facebook status:
"It's been two long years now, since the top of the world came crashing down, but Im gettin it back on the road now, and Im taking the long way....takin the long way around." <---a little over two years ago my world fell apart, I had a love that was stronger than anything I had ever felt, and he cheated on me, broke my heart, was cruel and heartless, and played stupid games...basically it was behavior deserving of beheading or public castration.....but alas, no one would do it. Anyway, that was when I decided that I refused to live my life in a small pond. It took me a very long time to get over him, and to figure out where I wanted my life to go, and even though I took the long way, Im finally moving on, literally, moving 3 hours away, to start my new life, while keeping that best parts and people of my old like close to my heart.
Anyway, next time I blog, it will be from San Diego. I may even include a video blog, if I can figure out how to get my camera and microphone to work simultaneously and record a video and how to post it. This could take a while.
Anyways, Im gonna finish my glass of plum loco wine, and sit by a fan c uz its hot as shit in this town right now.
Love to you all
Andru
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