December 27, 2010

Now what

Okay, the holidays are over, good food was had, joy was had, love was shared, gifts were given....and now Im back at work. The first day back to work after christmas is always the worse work day of the year. Its long, boring, and you resent being there. I hate it. Thankfully its almost over, and I can go home and relax.

I am sad to report that even though I am forever grateful for the generosity of my friends and family, I am still unable to afford to replace my laptop for a while, so I am having to use my computer at work to blog. Not that this bothers me much, but still. it sucks to go home and have just my iPhone for internet. I'll have to deal. When I get my tax refund, if it is as big as it was last year, I am going to buy a new Macbook. They are the best on the market and yes the cheapest one is $999...but they are worth every penny and last a very long time. I won't have to replace it in less than two years like I had to do with my HP.

I just dont like to wait. Guess I have no choice. It's okay though, it will be worth it. I will be so happy to have my macbook. I wont feel technologically inferior anymore LOL. After that is purchased, I may get an iPhone 4. I have a 3G now, and it has been amazing until I was required by iTunes to upgrade the software.... now its unreliable, freezes, and uses the battery more than before. I fucking hate it. Now I have to deal with THAT even longer now that I have to replace my laptop. It must be nice to make 100 grand a year like this guy I know who is two years younger than me and got his job because his grandfather knew someone who worked for the company. *sigh* I guess my time will come but damnit, I hate being poor. I hate it. Overworked, underpaid, trying to get ahead, get a college degree....ugh.

Anyway I digress... I think tonight is a delivery dinner night. I do NOT have the energy to cook dinner. I also dont want to deal with my roommate or her dog tonight but I'm probably going to have to. Oh well. I would normally take my laptop up to my room and watch TV online or a movie or something....but can't do that now. *sigh* I have DVD's at least up there to watch. eh.

Im thinking pizzahut pasta night. yummy.

I am looking forward to next weekend. new years eve party back home, my friend might go with me so Im excited about that. I just wish I had someone to kiss...and I mean REALLY KISS at midnight. Probably just gonna be another lonely new years eve. But at least I will be around a lot of good friends. Could be worse.

I've always hated the first 5 minutes of every new year. Everyone is kissing their partners, spouse, signifigant others... and then theres me, sitting in the corner, smiling at everyone elses happiness...and waiting for them to stop kissing each other and everyone starts hugging their friends...then I get to join in again.

*sigh*

oh well. My time will come. That's what I keep telling myself. hahahaha

December 22, 2010

Bah Hum Fuck

Well, it's the holidays again and once again I am left feeling conflicted about it. I do not believe in "God" or christianity anymore. I used to but I think it was because that was all I was exposed to and therefor blindly believed. So now that I am 30 and have decided for myself that there are WAY too many contradictions and way too few facts or proof for me to believe in it. As far as Im concerned, it's a fairy tale.

Anyway, I always loved the holidays, the spirit of it, the joy, the happiness.... I however do NOT like the shopping, the crowded frustrating malls and stores, and the bullshit that people throw around in the name of "giving" I damn near snatched one bitch bald-headed because after I stood in line for about 30 minutes to buy two gift cards at Forever21, this middle aged stuck up yuppy snobby bitch just walks in front of my when I get to the register and starts bitching at the cashier

Old Cow: "Um, my daughter left her jacket in the fitting room, and the fitting room person told us it was up here in the lost and found...can you check quickly? I have a lot to do today."

Me: "Uh, no...we ALL have a lot to do, what the hell makes you think your time is more important than mine or anyone elses in this LONG line you just walked right past? You need to take yourself to the back of the line and wait like everyone else."

Old Cow: "Excuse me? Was I talking to you? No, I wasn't."

Me: "There IS no excuse for you, and no you weren't talking to me, but you DID cut right in front of me in this line, and that's not okay, and NOW you're giving me attitude?? Bitch don't make me have to repeat myself!" *I point to the back of the line*

Old Cow: *puts her hand up as if to say 'talk to the hand' and turns to the cashier*
"Well?? Is it here or not?"

Cashier: "No ma'am Im sorry I dont see it here."

Old Bitchy Cow: "WHAT? Well are you gonna replace it? If someone stole it from this store then this store needs to replace it! They said it was up here, now you need to find it!"

Me: "You rude fucking bitch! The only thing this sweet and polite cashier NEEDS to do, is ring up the purchases of all the people who waited in line! Who the fuck do you think you are that you can come up in here and act crazy? You better get your hand down out of my face bitch or Im gonna slap the hell outta you!"

Old Cow: "Ya know what? I have had JUST ABOUT ENOUGH OF YOU."

Me: "DO SOMETHING. I wish you would, bitch. Give me a reason to punch you in the mouth. Secondly, it's not the store's fault that your stupid ass daughter can't be responsible enough to remember to grab her belongings when she leaves a fitting room. That's HER fault, not the store's fault. You need to yell at YOUR KID. And another thing, you better get your stupid ass kid and get to the back of the fucking line before I MOVE YOU to the back of the line, Im not having this, you can't fuckin talk to people like this and treat people like they are beneath you because eventually you're gonna come across someone CRAZY like ME who will be more than willing to beat you WITHIN AN INCH OF YOUR LIFE YOU STUPID FUCKING WHORE FACED SACK BELLIED OVER BOTOXED FAKE ASS BITCH. Now pick up your sagging middle aged breasts and vagina lips, and GET YOUR UGLY BITCH ASS TO THE BACK OF THE LINE THIS IS YOUR LAST WARNING."

**at this point, people in line behind me are yelling at her, some are laughing at what I'm yelling at her, some are tweeting, one girl recorded what I was saying, i wouldnt be surprised if I end up on youtube...**

Old Cow: "HOW DARE YOU! DON'T SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT"

Me: "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT?? YOURE NOT GONNA DO SHIT, NOW BACK THE FUCK UP BEFORE I HIT YOU, YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNT!!!!!"


At this point one guy is laughing and clapping, and the poor cashier is calling her manager frantically. The stupid bitch snatched up her bags and stormed off. I calmly walked to the register and said:
"I'm so sorry you had to experience that. You ok punkin?"

Cashier: "hehe yeah I guess Im okay. Wow."

Me: "yeah, THAT just happened. Anywho could you put $25 dollars on each of these gift cards for me? Thanks!"


When I walked outside, there was the stupid cow coming towards me with a security guard...

Me: "Oh this outta be good..."

Old Cow: "Him, right there, he attacked me!"

Security Guard: "Sir, come with me."

Me: "Um, no. Im not going anywhere with you, I never attacked her, I threatened to, that much is true, but never laid a hand on her."

Security Guard: "Ma'am is this true?"

Cow: "well yes but he attacked me!"

Me: "I verbally assaulted her in the store because she cut in front of 20 people to bitch at an innocent cashier about her dumb ass daughter losing her jacket. She put her hand up in my face and I lost my mind. She's LUCKY I didn't swing a mannequin over the back of her head."

Security guard: "Sir, that's not helping.... Ma'am, he didn't touch you, you told me he had...now did he or didn't he?"

Me: "actually it helped me, Im enjoying myself."

Security Guard "Sir... please."

Cow: "Well no but he was GOING to physically attack me, and I think you should do something about him."

Me: "Good thing you don't get paid for thinkin, bitch. Are we done here? The longer I have to hear the sound of her voice, the more likely I am to become violent."

Security Guard: "Sir, go about your shopping, be nice to people, and have a nice day..... Ma'am, you do the same, and wait patiently in line like all the other shoppers"

*I turned to her and very smuggly said* "BOOM."


I turned and headed for the parking garage.

This is what I hate the most about the holidays. People are SO fucking rude. Granted I couldve handled that situation with more class...but why? People need to know that their selfish and inconsiderate behavior is unacceptable!



ANYWAY, I feel weird about the holidays. I used to love it, now it makes me nervous. It sometimes can feel like all the holiday cheer is so fake and forced. I dont know, maybe Im just over it this year and its not as special as it used to be when I was younger... either way, my shopping is done, I only have one more person to buy for and I can do that after the 25th.


In other news, the universe made it VERY clear that the goals I had set for myself this month were not meant to happen.

I have been trying to find a one bedroom or studio apartment for a couple of months, and I was going to use my financial aid refund to get the apartment. Well wouldn't you know it, 3 days before my money comes in the mail, my laptop that I use for school dies...the next day, my car's maintenance light comes on telling me I need to get my oil changed and my transmission serviced....then a few hours later, the check engine light comes on, then dies in an intersection. All in all, the car costs me $1250 to fix and get serviced.

Fuck My Life

So there went my dream of having my very own apartment all by myself.

This kinda ruined me for about two days, then I switched gears. I decided t hat since I had to spend half my refund on my car, the other have should be put to good use... something that will make my future apartment hunt a little easier.

I work for a credit reporting agency. I have a VERY good understanding of credit, how it works, and most importantly, how to fix it. I decided to get my credit report from all three credit bureaus, and wanted to see exactly what is on my credit that maybe I can pay off to help improve my credit score and help improve my chances of getting approved for an apartment, or a new car (since my car just cost me a fortune to fix, I might want to be prepared to replace it, because the idea of having to make a car payment every month, AND make payments to repair shops, is NOT acceptable to me.) So I did. I contacted three of the creditors I owed money to, and paid them off. There is only one more left, which is about a grand, then Im free and clear! No more bad items on my credit report! HOORAY!!!

Im thinking that the universe didn't think I was prepared enough to live alone, so it changed my plans for me. As much as I can accept that I was not destined to get my own place this month, I am also a little pissed off at the universe. Couldn't you send me a note? Or an email or something letting me know this change I was preparing for wasn't the best decision?? Why did you have to fuck up my computer (which I depend on ) AND my car???? Fucking A... your little heads-up just cost me a fucking fortune!!!! Dear Universe, next time, EMAIL ME!!!!!!!!! Dont try to fuck up my life!!! JEEZ!!


Anyway, things are good right now, Im single, and Im actually okay with it. I would rather have someone I can hang out with, maybe have sex with, but no pressure of a relationship. Normally I would be totally relationship oriented, and would not want to just have a "fuck buddy" but ya know, it's easier right now. Let me be clear about one thing....

I AM NOT SLEEPING AROUND.

I havent had sex in a long time... but there were two guys I wanted to be with. I love them both, but sadly one just wanted to be friends even though in the beginning we were hot and heavy and flirty....then he just changed his mind one day.

The other guy, the one who I've loved for a LONG time...is 9 hours away, and we can;t really be together very often because neither one of us can afford to fly back and forth to see each other, so we stay in touch but aren't official because long distance relationships are shitty and usually fail because of the loneliness involved.

So maybe right now, I dont need a relationship. I think Im FINALLY okay with being single. Thank god, i hate that lonely feeling. Im good.

What else can I blog about....

My job is going well....I hope to become perminant soon and no longer be a temp, i would get paid more, and get benfits, as well as added job security. Cross your fingers.

hmmmm what else..... Im kinda back on my kick about wanting a Volkswagen Jetta. Although for about 5 grand more, I could get a Volkswagen Tiguan...cuz they are SUPER cute.



Anyway thats all I have in my head at the moment.

Happy Holidays!!!!!!!

December 21, 2010

Fan Mail

Okay this was on my face book from my dear friend Nadia...

Her Roller Derby name is Sandra Bullet, she is fabulousness, she is beautiful, and she is HILARIOUS. I absolutely adore her very being, and I had to post this on my blog.

Nadia Sandra Bullet West Dear Andy, I am having a shit day. Sofia has Pneumonia now, so you can imagine my stress level. However, I had your blog on my Bookmarks, and one entry in particular managed to brighten my day. The entry is from October 28th and is entitled "Hate Mail". The entire thing was magic, seriously. Thank you for making me laugh, I needed it. Love, Sandra

Andru Bergdahl My Dearest Sandra, I am very sorry to hear about your offspring having pheumonia. That truly sucks out loud. I am however, glad that you enjoyed my blog. Sometimes I manage to poop out a funny one, that isnt all angsty and emo. I hope tha...t you will be coming to Titty's reject xmas gathering, but I will be there and would LOVE to see you have too many drinks and starting calling me "Friend" really loud.

I hope all gets better soon and I love you to pieces.
hugs and squishes,
Andy Candy Pants.

P.S. ... Moist.




((She HATES the word "moist"))


It's nice to be appreciated and to have your work enjoyed.

December 15, 2010

Viva la Musica

This is what thumpin out of my car speaker at the moment...

Rihanna - "What's My Name"
David Guetta feat. Rihanna - "Who's that Chick"
Ingrid Michaelson - "Parachute"
Uknown - "Hot Mess" (I dont know who the fuck she is) Hot Mess.
Britney Spears - "Little Me"
Bruno Mars - "Grenade"
Ke$ha - "Crazy Beautiful Life"
Glee Cast - "Valerie"
Ida Maria - "Oh My God"
Ida Maria - "Louie"
YG - "Toot it and Boot it" <--- this song is just funny. the R&B remix is the best.
V.V. Brown - "Shark in the Water"
Mackintosh Braun - "Made for Us"

pretty sure they are all on youtube. check them out if you want! peace out bitches!

December 10, 2010

Silver Lining

Well, my financial aid money came. Hooray. It came just in time to pay $918 to fix my Honda. I distinctly remember buying a newer Honda so that I wouldn't HAVE to worry about it breaking down. I get regular oil changes, transmission services, I check the fluids, hoses and belts.... never had a problem with it, until this past Wednesday. My Accord coupe "Mei" had a stroke. (I associate auto repairs with medical proceedures and diagnoses....so if you have a CV Axle clicking = broken wrist, head light out = black eye, oil change = dialysis, etc etc) Apparently, the Actuator that controls the 4th valve of each cylnder, which is apprently the brain of the "VTEC" system in the engine decided to fry itself stupid....so it was running on only 3 valves per cylinder. The chip that regulates the activities of the actuator also fried in the process. She had a damn stroke at the tender age of 116,300 miles. So Mission Valley Honda in San Diego was the hosiptal to which my baby was towed, and they were surprisingly very good to me. They explained what happened, they told me that there was nothing I did to cause it, and nothing I could have done to prevent it, it just happens sometimes, and they were up front on their estimate. Now, the second day, they told me they needed the car for one more day... this obviously was a HUGE inconvenience to me, so they generously said that they would not charge me for the second part they needed, they only charged me for 3 hours of labor and the actuator cost, AND they gave me a *FREE* loaner car from the used car lot....which is a 2009 Honda Accord LX sedan. Very nice, very confortable, very plush...all in all a sweet ride. Im not really a fan of the transmission because unlike the automatic tranny in MY accord, this one is overly shifty and tries to hard to keep the RPMS super low for efficiency, and it ends up draining the power and acceleration. So its adequate, but not fun to drive or peppy. Im not complaining though, I have a loaner for free so Im over the moon.

I go down to pick up my baby after I get off work, then life will be better. I think she needs brakes though...the back brakes i think need to be replaced.... Ill work on it Im not sure. Im just happy she is alive and well.

December 6, 2010

...of course. so typical

Well, just when things are going well, there is always SOMETHING that fucks it up. This is the story of my life. This is why I am so fucking pessamistic people, people say "omg youre so negative all the time" well when all you get is the shit end of the stick in every situation.... yeah, you would be a downer too.

Anyway, I still have gotten my financial aid check yet, which is completely unacceptable, and Im still trying to find an apartment because YET AGAIN, my roommate couldnt be bothered to go to the bank or make time to get her rent money until the 7th... and then she deposited a check into my account. Her check NEVER CLEAR. Whether she has the money or not, her c hecks bounce. So I dont have enough money to cover the rent, so the landloard is going to have to wait. OH and I cant call him, because the software update on my phone ERASED MY CONTACT LIST>.... SO I HAVE NO PHONE NUMBERS.... So I just hope he doesnt get too pissed off and evict us before I can move out. I dont want the eviction on my credit because SHE fucked up and doesnt think paying her bills on time is important.

THEN... as Im trying to recover my phone list, my laptop suddenly goes black, and has been stuck in perpetual reboot since yesterday. AWESOME. its less than 2 years old. FUCKING FANTASTIC. JUST WHEN I FINALLY AM GETTING MY MONEY AND MOVING FORWARD, SOMETHING ALWAYS FUCKS IT UP AND I GET DRAGGED BACK DOWN....well ya know what...FUCK THAT. If I cant get my laptop to work, and cant afford to fix it, then i will happily pitch it over a cliff and smile as it shatters into a million pieces. Fuck that laptop. Ill figure out a way to get another one. Im still moving, fuck that Im not giving up on that dream.

So right now my mood is fucking FOUL.

December 3, 2010

Friday's are good.

Today was a good day. my HS isnt killing me, im in a good mood, I had a good day at work, lots of food and laughs on the clock...good times.

UNTIL: lemme tell you about this IGGNUNT (yes, I said iggnunt. its Ingorant...only WORSE) food with jacked up crooked teeth and bad corn rows up on his ugly ass head tryin to act like he is the man around here... and he has only worked here like 3 weeks. He straight up asked my co work "dang girl, are you pregnant?"

W

T

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YOU DONT ASK A WOMAN IF SHE IS PREGNANT!!!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU IGNORANT BASTARD....

yeah Im now on a mission to get his ass fired. That was the final straw, he is rude, he tries to bum rides from people he doesnt even know, he talks shit to his girl (im amazed his ugly ass has one) while he is at his desk with co workers around, he is ex military who thinks he doesnt have to take orders from women....or "civilians" well guess what nukkah, yo boss, and two of yo leads..ARE WOMEN. And I may be a homosexical & a "civlilian", but I am higher than you on the seniority list and you gotta do what I say too... SO SUCK IT EASY FUCK FACE.


OOOOH he got me LIT...made me have to catch a case on a friday.

Anyway... thats my day. Once Im outta here, I'm gonna meet my boys for a nice dinner and maybe some cocktails. YAY WEEKEND!!!!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, be safe, and make memories!!

Music = Life

Here's what's on my iPod and in my CD player in the car:

Rihanna - "What's My Name" <---- on repeat omg I love it
Ke$ha - "Cannibal"
Ke$ha - "VIP"
Ke$ha - "Blow"
PitBull featuring Ke$ha - "Girls"
Kristine Elezaj - "Kidnap the DJ"
Cascada - "Evacuate the Dancefloor"
Sarah Bareilles - "Gravity"
Darius Rucker - "Exodus"
Dashboard Confessional - "This Bitter Pill"
Cast of Glee - "Teenage Dream"
Ida Maria - "Oh My God"
Florence and the Machine - "The Dog Days are Over"

they should all be on youtube... check em out!!! Hope you love them as much as I do.

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!