*sigh* If I keep getting thrown into drama, Im gonna start cutting people out of my life. I am fucking 30 years old, I do not have the patience to be dealing with childish, passive aggressive, petty bullshit drama. I am not in high school. I am also sick of being treated like I'm beneath people. If you can't treat me equally, like an adult, and like a friend, then you obviously are not a friend and you can see yourself out of my life. Peace the FUCK OUT.
Im trying so hard to find balance and inner peace with my life, and to let go of the turmoil and the petty dramas...I am trying to treat my friends with the same respect I deserve to be treated with, I am trying to be an honest and truthful person, who can be trusted and more importantly, be taken seriously....because for so long, I wasn't taken seriously, or treated fairly...and Im done.
Yes a big part of this blog is me venting... yes Im sure I will feel better after this is written and even better still tomorrow....but right now, right this second, I feel betrayed. I am not naming names because that would be petty and childish, and Im sure there is one person in particular who will read this and probably assume it is about him...and to him I say: "S...its not about you, relax."
Lemme ask you few and beloved readers of mine....when will I be taken seriously? What is it going to take for people to respect that I am an adult capable of making my own decisions without needing anyones approval or consent? When will I be seen as smart enough to make my own decisions, cuz here I am, 30 years old...and still every decision I make, every thought I share...is picked apart, ridiculed, judged, and discounted.
I don't appreciate it. Maybe from now on I just won't share any more. Maybe I will keep every single thing to myself.
2 comments:
If people around you have nothing better to do than to ridicule your decisions, then they have issues to begin with.
True friends are there to listen to you debate those decisions, offer advice (if asked) and be the sounding board you need. When you finally make it, they should be there to support you. Well unless you want to jump out of a plane without a parachute, commit a crime, or generally cause harm.
When you realize that maybe it was not the wises decision, it is their job to help you learn from that mistake and say "hey if you had not done it, you would not have learn this or experienced this".
As one of my Daily Moments of Zen says:
Good judgment comes from bad experience and a lot of that comes from bad judgement.
Course one of them also says: your sole purpose in life may be to serve as a warning to others......
Thank you, and I also believe that even though it feels good sometimes to say "I told you so" its hurts like hell to hear it. Someone I know once said "saying i told you so helps in the learning process"
BULL FUCKING SHIT. All it does is further boost the ego of the person saying it, and make the person hearing it feel even worse than they already do.
a real friend won't say those words to you when you are hurting. a real friend wouldnt have to. a real friend wouldnt WANT to say it....
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