Now what

Okay, the holidays are over, good food was had, joy was had, love was shared, gifts were given....and now Im back at work. The first day back to work after christmas is always the worse work day of the year. Its long, boring, and you resent being there. I hate it. Thankfully its almost over, and I can go home and relax.

I am sad to report that even though I am forever grateful for the generosity of my friends and family, I am still unable to afford to replace my laptop for a while, so I am having to use my computer at work to blog. Not that this bothers me much, but still. it sucks to go home and have just my iPhone for internet. I'll have to deal. When I get my tax refund, if it is as big as it was last year, I am going to buy a new Macbook. They are the best on the market and yes the cheapest one is $999...but they are worth every penny and last a very long time. I won't have to replace it in less than two years like I had to do with my HP.

I just dont like to wait. Guess I have no choice. It's okay though, it will be worth it. I will be so happy to have my macbook. I wont feel technologically inferior anymore LOL. After that is purchased, I may get an iPhone 4. I have a 3G now, and it has been amazing until I was required by iTunes to upgrade the software.... now its unreliable, freezes, and uses the battery more than before. I fucking hate it. Now I have to deal with THAT even longer now that I have to replace my laptop. It must be nice to make 100 grand a year like this guy I know who is two years younger than me and got his job because his grandfather knew someone who worked for the company. *sigh* I guess my time will come but damnit, I hate being poor. I hate it. Overworked, underpaid, trying to get ahead, get a college degree....ugh.

Anyway I digress... I think tonight is a delivery dinner night. I do NOT have the energy to cook dinner. I also dont want to deal with my roommate or her dog tonight but I'm probably going to have to. Oh well. I would normally take my laptop up to my room and watch TV online or a movie or something....but can't do that now. *sigh* I have DVD's at least up there to watch. eh.

Im thinking pizzahut pasta night. yummy.

I am looking forward to next weekend. new years eve party back home, my friend might go with me so Im excited about that. I just wish I had someone to kiss...and I mean REALLY KISS at midnight. Probably just gonna be another lonely new years eve. But at least I will be around a lot of good friends. Could be worse.

I've always hated the first 5 minutes of every new year. Everyone is kissing their partners, spouse, signifigant others... and then theres me, sitting in the corner, smiling at everyone elses happiness...and waiting for them to stop kissing each other and everyone starts hugging their friends...then I get to join in again.

*sigh*

oh well. My time will come. That's what I keep telling myself. hahahaha