What's worse... wishing you never met someone, or still having feelings for that person when you know its just never gonna happen?
either way, it feels like shit.
November 3, 2009
October 8, 2009
What's Up Pudding Cup?
Well damn its been a while since Ive posted a blog that wasnt about music.
Here's whats up in my life. Viva La Vida Dru....
Life in San Diego has been good, slow and boring but good. I have yet to develop a social life, mostly because I probably could put more effort into going places and meeting people, but frankly, Im lazy.
I did have coffee with someone who I think will be a very good friend who I will have lots of fun with, named Jimmy. No that isnt dirty gay "fun"...pervs. He has a man. He is funny and interesting and loves Avatar as much as I do. WOOT
Im told the craziness back home has calmed own. THANK GAWD. Its exhausting to drive all the way back to my old hood, just to be met with peoples issues. I have one friend who needs to stop whining about stuff, and do something about it and its incredibly frustrating because this friend has been a friend for a while but its like OMG STFU and do something. Stop bitchin. See a therapist or something..shit.
What else... OH I made the 1300 mile trip to Dallas a few weeks ago to spend a weekend away and to meet a cutie that I adore. We had a wonderful weekend, and he is very special to me. YAY. He knows who he is, and he knows I adore him endlessly. Im excited for him to move to california so we can kick it.
So my plan right now, is to kinda give up on men. Ive gotten my hopes up so many times just to be disappointed...so why bother? Dallas guy will probably be moving to cali next year around fall...so until then, Im pretty much not gonna bother. I thought i met someone before I moved who happened to live down here, and I really thought he and I wouldve been perfect together...i guess he felt differently, cuz after i told him that when he was ready for another relationship, that I really wanted that relationship to be with me...our contact all but vanished. I rarely hear from him and if I do its once in a blue moon and its usually "hey buddy...hows life" 5 minutes later, the texts end. *sigh* Yet another example of why I never try so hard not to get my hopes up, cuz Im always disappointed, and left alone wondering why I bother.
As much as I would like to find the right guy, Im really starting to think that maybe there isnt one out there for me, and I think Im learning to accept that and be okay with it. I dont feel that longing for companionship anymore...and once Im more financially stable and have my school issues cleared up (thats a whole 'nother blog post) Im thinking I might summon up the courage, to get a dog.
I
WANT
A
PUG
.
I cant decide if I want to name my pug Scrunchy Face, Foo-Foo Cuddly Poops, or Chunk.
Its a big commitment, and a HUGE responsibility that I dont want to take on until I know I can handle it, but it will happen. I have this feeling though... the feeling that more guys I meet, the more I will love and value my pug. Yes, I will be one of "those" and Im okay with that.
OH and b-t-dubs, you all are going to have to learn to accept the fact that YES I WILL BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO DRESSES THEIR DOGS! My pug will have at least one black t shirt with something clever or funny on it. He/She will probably have at least one halloween costume as well. Deal with it. I dont give a fuck if you like it or not.
My mother has been recovering from her stroke that happened back in may really well. She is driving, thriving, and walking. She is now on a cane, so she is able to move around better. She has her Smart Car which is both ridiculous..and adorable. She is so cute in it, and so happy. Which is what makes me so happy and glow inside. You dont even know the struggles that woman has been thru, and how she summoned up the strength to always keep going even when everything was against her, she never gave in and never gave up, and now that she is happy, I glow. Im so happy I Could cry.
She is, as I type this, on a cruise in the greek isles.
Well, I have a long weekend ahead of me, Im going to Ventura for a night, then heading to Lake Havasu AZ to visit my dear friend Gary and Kim. I love their house, its high class yet comfortable and peaceful and relaxing. They always feed us like Kings when we come visit, not mad at that, and its always fun to go. Im excited. I will be out of town for the next 5 days, so wish me safe travels.
Much Love to all and thank you for still reading my blog.
I know I have said this like 50 times, but i swear when I have more to write about I will.
OH, Im thinking about turning my tragic dating history into a book. Im actually considering trying to write a book, can you believe it?? I figure who better to tell the world what NOT to do that someone who has done it all wrong from the beginning. hahahaha
I will talk about my awful dates, funny stories, amazing friends, horrible ex boyfriends (who I will probably have to disguise with different names, but that are close enough to know WHO THEY ARE IF THEY READ IT...fuckers.... but it will be funny, informative, and so very ANDRU. Who knows, maybe I will make some money and become an author, or a comedian or something...who knows. All I know is that I need to find a way to live life without worrying so damn much about money.
OH and my friend Aaron is talking about doing a Roller Derby Interviewer webisode type thing starring yours truly!!! OMG if I become a web celeb I'll die. My goal right now is to be the gay Chelsea Handler. HAHAHAHAA
Oh and to use my celebrity (if I achieve it) to meet people like Kathy Griffin, Mo'Nique, Chelsea Handler, Joe Rogan (HOT) and maybe some of my favorite musicians.
oh and...make a difference in the world i guess or something....
OKAY i need to sleep
Peace out bitches. <3
Here's whats up in my life. Viva La Vida Dru....
Life in San Diego has been good, slow and boring but good. I have yet to develop a social life, mostly because I probably could put more effort into going places and meeting people, but frankly, Im lazy.
I did have coffee with someone who I think will be a very good friend who I will have lots of fun with, named Jimmy. No that isnt dirty gay "fun"...pervs. He has a man. He is funny and interesting and loves Avatar as much as I do. WOOT
Im told the craziness back home has calmed own. THANK GAWD. Its exhausting to drive all the way back to my old hood, just to be met with peoples issues. I have one friend who needs to stop whining about stuff, and do something about it and its incredibly frustrating because this friend has been a friend for a while but its like OMG STFU and do something. Stop bitchin. See a therapist or something..shit.
What else... OH I made the 1300 mile trip to Dallas a few weeks ago to spend a weekend away and to meet a cutie that I adore. We had a wonderful weekend, and he is very special to me. YAY. He knows who he is, and he knows I adore him endlessly. Im excited for him to move to california so we can kick it.
So my plan right now, is to kinda give up on men. Ive gotten my hopes up so many times just to be disappointed...so why bother? Dallas guy will probably be moving to cali next year around fall...so until then, Im pretty much not gonna bother. I thought i met someone before I moved who happened to live down here, and I really thought he and I wouldve been perfect together...i guess he felt differently, cuz after i told him that when he was ready for another relationship, that I really wanted that relationship to be with me...our contact all but vanished. I rarely hear from him and if I do its once in a blue moon and its usually "hey buddy...hows life" 5 minutes later, the texts end. *sigh* Yet another example of why I never try so hard not to get my hopes up, cuz Im always disappointed, and left alone wondering why I bother.
As much as I would like to find the right guy, Im really starting to think that maybe there isnt one out there for me, and I think Im learning to accept that and be okay with it. I dont feel that longing for companionship anymore...and once Im more financially stable and have my school issues cleared up (thats a whole 'nother blog post) Im thinking I might summon up the courage, to get a dog.
I
WANT
A
PUG
.
I cant decide if I want to name my pug Scrunchy Face, Foo-Foo Cuddly Poops, or Chunk.
Its a big commitment, and a HUGE responsibility that I dont want to take on until I know I can handle it, but it will happen. I have this feeling though... the feeling that more guys I meet, the more I will love and value my pug. Yes, I will be one of "those" and Im okay with that.
OH and b-t-dubs, you all are going to have to learn to accept the fact that YES I WILL BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO DRESSES THEIR DOGS! My pug will have at least one black t shirt with something clever or funny on it. He/She will probably have at least one halloween costume as well. Deal with it. I dont give a fuck if you like it or not.
My mother has been recovering from her stroke that happened back in may really well. She is driving, thriving, and walking. She is now on a cane, so she is able to move around better. She has her Smart Car which is both ridiculous..and adorable. She is so cute in it, and so happy. Which is what makes me so happy and glow inside. You dont even know the struggles that woman has been thru, and how she summoned up the strength to always keep going even when everything was against her, she never gave in and never gave up, and now that she is happy, I glow. Im so happy I Could cry.
She is, as I type this, on a cruise in the greek isles.
Well, I have a long weekend ahead of me, Im going to Ventura for a night, then heading to Lake Havasu AZ to visit my dear friend Gary and Kim. I love their house, its high class yet comfortable and peaceful and relaxing. They always feed us like Kings when we come visit, not mad at that, and its always fun to go. Im excited. I will be out of town for the next 5 days, so wish me safe travels.
Much Love to all and thank you for still reading my blog.
I know I have said this like 50 times, but i swear when I have more to write about I will.
OH, Im thinking about turning my tragic dating history into a book. Im actually considering trying to write a book, can you believe it?? I figure who better to tell the world what NOT to do that someone who has done it all wrong from the beginning. hahahaha
I will talk about my awful dates, funny stories, amazing friends, horrible ex boyfriends (who I will probably have to disguise with different names, but that are close enough to know WHO THEY ARE IF THEY READ IT...fuckers.... but it will be funny, informative, and so very ANDRU. Who knows, maybe I will make some money and become an author, or a comedian or something...who knows. All I know is that I need to find a way to live life without worrying so damn much about money.
OH and my friend Aaron is talking about doing a Roller Derby Interviewer webisode type thing starring yours truly!!! OMG if I become a web celeb I'll die. My goal right now is to be the gay Chelsea Handler. HAHAHAHAA
Oh and to use my celebrity (if I achieve it) to meet people like Kathy Griffin, Mo'Nique, Chelsea Handler, Joe Rogan (HOT) and maybe some of my favorite musicians.
oh and...make a difference in the world i guess or something....
OKAY i need to sleep
Peace out bitches. <3
Viva La Musica
Some of these songs are new, some are old, but all are good as far as Im concerned, and lets face it, its my blog, so only my opinion matters. HAHAHAHA
Enjoy!!
Jordin Sparks - No Parade
Jordin Sparks - Let The Music Play
Taylor Swift - Breathe
Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry (both the album version AND the CSI remix)
Bobby Brown - Humpin' Around
Mariah Carey - I Wanna Know What Love Is (i know, Mooriah Scarey...Im no a fan but this is a good cover, and I love a good cover.)
Maroon 5 - Secret
Heart - Alone
Pink - Glitter in the Air
Pink - Mean
Keri Hilson - Knock You Down
Chrisette Michele - Porcelain Doll
Kim Zolciak - Tardy for the Party
Ani DiFranco - As Is
Alison Krauss - Moments Like This
Rob Thomas - All That I Am
Enjoy!!
Jordin Sparks - No Parade
Jordin Sparks - Let The Music Play
Taylor Swift - Breathe
Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry (both the album version AND the CSI remix)
Bobby Brown - Humpin' Around
Mariah Carey - I Wanna Know What Love Is (i know, Mooriah Scarey...Im no a fan but this is a good cover, and I love a good cover.)
Maroon 5 - Secret
Heart - Alone
Pink - Glitter in the Air
Pink - Mean
Keri Hilson - Knock You Down
Chrisette Michele - Porcelain Doll
Kim Zolciak - Tardy for the Party
Ani DiFranco - As Is
Alison Krauss - Moments Like This
Rob Thomas - All That I Am
September 29, 2009
Viva La Musica
Hey Hey Peeps!!!
Here is my most recent list of music Im rockin out to.
Enjoy!!!!
Chrisette Michelle - Porcelain Doll
Kim Zociak - Tardy for the Party
Pink - Glitter in the Air
Pink - Mean
Bobby Brown - Humpin' Around
Britney Spears (feat. Lil Kim) - Gimme More (Kimme More mix)
Ameerah - The Sound of Missing You
Nelly Furtado - Manos Al Aire
Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
Jordin Sparks - Battlefield
Lady GaGa (or as I call her..Lady Blah Blah) - Love Game
Friends for Change (some disney publicity thing) - Send It On
Katie Grey - Set Free
Woolfy - Too Far Gone
Emiliana Torini - Big Jumps
hope you like them!!!
Here is my most recent list of music Im rockin out to.
Enjoy!!!!
Chrisette Michelle - Porcelain Doll
Kim Zociak - Tardy for the Party
Pink - Glitter in the Air
Pink - Mean
Bobby Brown - Humpin' Around
Britney Spears (feat. Lil Kim) - Gimme More (Kimme More mix)
Ameerah - The Sound of Missing You
Nelly Furtado - Manos Al Aire
Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
Jordin Sparks - Battlefield
Lady GaGa (or as I call her..Lady Blah Blah) - Love Game
Friends for Change (some disney publicity thing) - Send It On
Katie Grey - Set Free
Woolfy - Too Far Gone
Emiliana Torini - Big Jumps
hope you like them!!!
September 14, 2009
What Fuckery is this???
I dont know whats happening.... back home people have gone crazy!
What the fuck was piped into the air system or the water supply in ventura county? people have lost their mutha fuggin MINDS!!!! I get texts and phone calls and cant believe what Im hearing!!!!
I dont know who hit the crazy button and turned the dial to "uncivilized" mode, but holy shit someone fix it!!!!!
we arent in high school people, we should be able to address issues, and problems with each other like adults....all this he said she said, telling different people different stories, talking to others behind your bf/gf's back.... my word.
As much as I love to be kept in the loop, Im REALLY GLAD Im not there.
Im just waiting for the roof to be blown off... its gonna happen, there have been plenty of close calls, but the shit hasnt fully hit the fan yet....so brace yourselves.
I just hope those of us who arent involved dont get dragged further into this. Cuz If my name come out of someones mouth and I get dragged into anyones bullshit unjustly....Im done. Im going off, Im putting shit on blast, Im gonna SHOW MY ASS. I will show you how uncivilized I can get.
Best believe. I dont get down like that and I dont play that bullshit.
I hope it all boils over and calms down and ends. Somehow I doubt that will be the case.
What the fuck was piped into the air system or the water supply in ventura county? people have lost their mutha fuggin MINDS!!!! I get texts and phone calls and cant believe what Im hearing!!!!
I dont know who hit the crazy button and turned the dial to "uncivilized" mode, but holy shit someone fix it!!!!!
we arent in high school people, we should be able to address issues, and problems with each other like adults....all this he said she said, telling different people different stories, talking to others behind your bf/gf's back.... my word.
As much as I love to be kept in the loop, Im REALLY GLAD Im not there.
Im just waiting for the roof to be blown off... its gonna happen, there have been plenty of close calls, but the shit hasnt fully hit the fan yet....so brace yourselves.
I just hope those of us who arent involved dont get dragged further into this. Cuz If my name come out of someones mouth and I get dragged into anyones bullshit unjustly....Im done. Im going off, Im putting shit on blast, Im gonna SHOW MY ASS. I will show you how uncivilized I can get.
Best believe. I dont get down like that and I dont play that bullshit.
I hope it all boils over and calms down and ends. Somehow I doubt that will be the case.
September 13, 2009
Please DIE Kanye
Dear Kanye West,
You are not a remarkable talent. Your fame is fizzling, and so you stomp on other peoples glory just to get attention. You need to fucking die in a fire. I hate you.
I used to like you, loved what you said about George Bush not caring about black people...that was awesome...but ya know, ok so Beyonce may have made the greatest song or whatever...but the bottom line is...Taylor Swift won the award, how DARE you crush her moment. You are a heartless fuck and I hope Taylor hires someone to beat your fucking face to a pulp, then I hope that you die in a slow burning fire.
FUCK YOU KANYE WEST, I HOPE YOU DIE.
ok I vented I feel better
You are not a remarkable talent. Your fame is fizzling, and so you stomp on other peoples glory just to get attention. You need to fucking die in a fire. I hate you.
I used to like you, loved what you said about George Bush not caring about black people...that was awesome...but ya know, ok so Beyonce may have made the greatest song or whatever...but the bottom line is...Taylor Swift won the award, how DARE you crush her moment. You are a heartless fuck and I hope Taylor hires someone to beat your fucking face to a pulp, then I hope that you die in a slow burning fire.
FUCK YOU KANYE WEST, I HOPE YOU DIE.
ok I vented I feel better
September 11, 2009
I Don't Get It
I've noticed that people have this great ability to convince themselves of ANYTHING.
Take Miss Lady at the grocery store today...she managed to convince herself that the lavender leggings, gold ballet slippers, and an orange oversized sweat shirt was a FIERCE outfit. Obviously along with being color blind, she must also have thought that leaving her house in that abortion of color would be acceptable. I think if you can get a ticket for crossing a street in the wrong place, then people whose horrible choices in fashion that cause traffic accidents...should be ticketed too.
Also, by the way, as a piece of advise for the world... if youre sitting at starbucks, and youre listening to the conversations of those of us who are interesting, please dont get upset if we give you dirty looks, cuz by eavesdropping, YOU are, in fact, the rude one.
I have decided that there are a few people that I am MORE than okay NEVER talking to again.
The Egyptian for instance... omg get a clue. I tried to be nice, you couldnt extend the courtesy, I mean yeah okay so I told you it was NEVER going to happen with us, but dont be bitter.
Rudy...OMG, please go away and STAY GONE. I do not want you in my life. You crossed a line. So please, stay out of my life. You wanna try to mend ties with some people that you and I have in common, then so be it....but stay the fuck away from me.
BTDubs people...i have wicked heartburn and dont know why....I blame the roast beef sandwich, and red wine.
what else is on my mind.... OH
the googley eyed money stack that represents the money you could be saving with geico...is no longer funny, cute, or interesting....Geico...Please make it go away. Youre beating a dead horse.
Speaking of Horses...that tacky ass bitch Kim Zolciek needs to go away and never come back. Bitch you cant sing, the producers used their computers to make you sound like a person with a shred of talent....fact is... you dont have any talent, money of your own, or class. go away ya bald headed HEFFA.
BTW if anyone knows NeNe Leakes, and you might want to make my dream of being her friend come true, please forward my name, facebook, twitter, or this blog to her.
Okay I think thats all I have to rant about today. I promise Im gonna start blogging more. I have been neglecting my blog. Bad Andru.
Take Miss Lady at the grocery store today...she managed to convince herself that the lavender leggings, gold ballet slippers, and an orange oversized sweat shirt was a FIERCE outfit. Obviously along with being color blind, she must also have thought that leaving her house in that abortion of color would be acceptable. I think if you can get a ticket for crossing a street in the wrong place, then people whose horrible choices in fashion that cause traffic accidents...should be ticketed too.
Also, by the way, as a piece of advise for the world... if youre sitting at starbucks, and youre listening to the conversations of those of us who are interesting, please dont get upset if we give you dirty looks, cuz by eavesdropping, YOU are, in fact, the rude one.
I have decided that there are a few people that I am MORE than okay NEVER talking to again.
The Egyptian for instance... omg get a clue. I tried to be nice, you couldnt extend the courtesy, I mean yeah okay so I told you it was NEVER going to happen with us, but dont be bitter.
Rudy...OMG, please go away and STAY GONE. I do not want you in my life. You crossed a line. So please, stay out of my life. You wanna try to mend ties with some people that you and I have in common, then so be it....but stay the fuck away from me.
BTDubs people...i have wicked heartburn and dont know why....I blame the roast beef sandwich, and red wine.
what else is on my mind.... OH
the googley eyed money stack that represents the money you could be saving with geico...is no longer funny, cute, or interesting....Geico...Please make it go away. Youre beating a dead horse.
Speaking of Horses...that tacky ass bitch Kim Zolciek needs to go away and never come back. Bitch you cant sing, the producers used their computers to make you sound like a person with a shred of talent....fact is... you dont have any talent, money of your own, or class. go away ya bald headed HEFFA.
BTW if anyone knows NeNe Leakes, and you might want to make my dream of being her friend come true, please forward my name, facebook, twitter, or this blog to her.
Okay I think thats all I have to rant about today. I promise Im gonna start blogging more. I have been neglecting my blog. Bad Andru.
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