July 29, 2009

Viva La Musica

Just as a disclaimer for those of you who dont know me that well, I have the most random taste in music EVER. But from time to time I will post a list of stuff I like, and that I am currently listening to and usually singing along with ...badly...in my car.

I always recommend that you download them and give them a listen...or check out you tube, usually you can find the songs on you tube with some bullshit homemade slide show "music video" some random nobody in some backwoods state made and posted between 5 & 6th period at Loser Mc NoLife High School.


Anyway, here is my list of music that I currently am completely in love with, ENJOY!

Mandy Moore - In My Pocket
- You Remind Me
- Yo Yo (<---- i know this one sounds like a bubblegum pop bullshit song, its not. I mean, its from her second album so it still has its roots in pop...but its a good song.)

Incubus - Aqueous Transmission
Schuyler Fisk - Waking Life (odd way to spell the name Skylar...but whatever)
Hoku - Closer
David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over
New Found Glory - King of Wishful Thinking
- Don't You (Forget about Me)
- Crazy For You
- Stay (I Miss You)
Yellowcard - Everywhere
Silverstein - Apologize
Four Year Strong - Love Song
Daughtry - Poker Face



Yes, everything from New Found Glory down is covers of other songs, and they are done pretty well...in fact I think that Daughtry did a better job with Poker Face then Lady Blah Blah. Honestly, I dont understand why everything is so impressed with her....not that her songs havent been catchy, but she isnt an amazing talent, her music isnt unique or revolutionary, and she has the STUPIDEST NAME EVER. Lady GAGA??? really?? *ugh* but then again, sometimes music isnt meant to be meaningful... so whatever work it out.

Hope you all love the music, if not, whatever.


OH and by the way, if you hear anything you like, and think you have something I might like, please let me know! Post suggestions as comments, and I'll personally give you my feedback. :-)

July 27, 2009

Good Times

Well, I was in SD for two weeks, now Im back in the 805 for a week or so. So Ill be in the east end of Ventura at Amanda's house hangin out with her two kick ass dogs, Carly and Guinness. There will be pictures. :-)

**Special Private Note for someone special who totally knows who she is: you make my day brighter. I kinda feel like I might need you in my life. xoxo**

moving on...

okay...so I've been thinking lately that the gay community in California...specifically the Bear's little sector...is far too small. it makes me a little sick that I cant escape my ex no matter what I do. He is the only ex who lingers. Its not that I hate him. I dont. I just am not a big fan of what kind of person he has become. Im also not at a point where Im comfortable making jokes with him or bringing up our past relationship. I think he thinks we are friends. Good friends. and that everything with us is peachy and everything is perfect. WRONG. I am over him, Im not in love with him, havent been in a LONG time...but I never forgave him for what he did to me, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna let him think otherwise. Bottom line: seeing him makes my stomach hurt a lil bit, i cant explain it, its like...even though I care about him, and am SOMETIMES happy to see or hear from him.... whenever he is talked about, or I see him somewhere, or he texts me, or whatever...my immediate reaction is negative. A look of "ugh ew" comes to my face, my stomach gets that weird gross feeling, and I immediately wanna turn and walk away. But sometimes, that is just for a second or two then Im like "aw he had a nice comment to make on my facebook,isn't that nice of him." WEIRD> I dont know, he seems to have this idea that he is gonna come visit me in San Diego.... thats laughable. Its nice that he wants to. Obviously he wants to have a good healthy friendship with me, I just dont know if I can. Besides, its weird enough that we are ex's.... on top of that he has a bf, and did he think he was gonna bring his bf to my house?? cuz NO. thats not okay, and him coming without his bf, to visit his exbf...would be weird, if I were his bf I wouldnt be okay with that. Hell Im not okay with him coming to visit me in SD. OH and he asked if he could STAY AT MY HOUSE>... am I on glue? Is this happening? I dont think so ex boyfriend. no no. I cant give a valid reason, I cant explain why, but it feels VERY wrong to me. I think I may still have some hurt feelings, and disappointments, and maybe Im still a little mad at him...I dont know...I cant figure it out, so its just easier to avoid him, his existence, and just focus on ANYTHING else. Part of me feels bad for having such a natural negative reaction towards my ex....and the other part of me says "well if thats your natural reaction, go with it." \

I hate when I have these moments that I think about him or am forced to deal with him. ugh.

Anyway, on to bigger, longer, thicker, and harder things.... ;-)

So everything is okay for right now, just waiting for Sallie Mae Financial to confirm my student loan so money can come in hopefully before I DIE.

I got my bunny monsterz!!!!!!!! I named them Quintin and Foo-Foo-Cuddly-Poops
Pictures will happen dont worry. OH and Im thinking I might have a blog comic strip staring my bunny monsters. Yes I have too much time on my hands, but you never know, I may have just created the next icanhazcheezburger.com or Robot Chicken. So dont judge me.


OH and I highly recommend that you go out and buy "Punk goes Pop" buy both 1 and 2. SO FUN!



okay Im outtie bitches. love yer faces.

July 22, 2009

So not how I thought it would be...

Well I've been in San Diego for a week and a half...and have seen two people, and it wasnt the people I thought. I guess everyone has a busy life, I just thought I would see friends. I saw Erin, who was an old friend from many years ago...she hasnt changed a bit which was refreshing but it was so good to see her. I saw my friend Rick and his Boyfriend at Pride, which was good. They are very nice.

I dont know. I think the problem is that Im so used to seeing my friends every day, and I have to get used to the idea that maybe that isnt what everyone does.
Im gonna keep an open mind about it, because I know everyone is different, but I need to put on my big boy underpants, and just go somewhere...somewhere social, and just sit. Maybe Ill meet people, make friends. Since I spent like everyday from age 18 to age 28 hanging with friends at Starbucks...maybe Ill give that a whirl. haha.

My friend Sergi is home from Spain, Im so glad he is home safe and had a great summer. He makes me smile.

This blog has had no structure. I just realized its kind of a ramble......awesome.

July 12, 2009

Are you Gone Yet?

I have gotten this question alot. Mostly in jest but still, kinda seems like the longest goodbye ever....well okay except for Cher's farewell tour that's been going on since the 1800's.

Tomorrow Morning, around 10am...I will be leaving the 805, for the 619. I don't know how to feel. I will miss everyone, and be sad that they aren't nearby, but also excited for all the new possibilities that lay ahead for me.

I know I will be back pretty often since Im only 3 hours away, and I will see everyone, and my love for them will not change just as I hope their love for me will not change. Im not going to name names as to whom I will miss the most....only because I know alot of people and dont want anyone to think I wont miss them cuz they arent named. you bitches know I will miss you and ya'll know who you are.

:-)

I havent cried or been super depressed... yet. Ive seen Jessica, Jamie, and Amanda tear and get choked up... and i had to swallow that damn frog in my throat too... Im know I will cry if they all start crying... so I might as well be prepared for it now. hahaha.

Anyway, my facebook status was recently changed to a song lyric that was so appropriate that I couldnt believe it.

A few years ago when my dear friend Cathy moved to Oakland, she played a song for me and said "This is the song of your life. I cant explain it, but you are always the strongest image that appears in my head when I hear this song." She was right.

I wont include THE WHOLE SONG, cuz my laptop only has so much battery time left, but here are the parts that are the most about me, and what is on my facebook status:

"It's been two long years now, since the top of the world came crashing down, but Im gettin it back on the road now, and Im taking the long way....takin the long way around." <---a little over two years ago my world fell apart, I had a love that was stronger than anything I had ever felt, and he cheated on me, broke my heart, was cruel and heartless, and played stupid games...basically it was behavior deserving of beheading or public castration.....but alas, no one would do it. Anyway, that was when I decided that I refused to live my life in a small pond. It took me a very long time to get over him, and to figure out where I wanted my life to go, and even though I took the long way, Im finally moving on, literally, moving 3 hours away, to start my new life, while keeping that best parts and people of my old like close to my heart.


Anyway, next time I blog, it will be from San Diego. I may even include a video blog, if I can figure out how to get my camera and microphone to work simultaneously and record a video and how to post it. This could take a while.

Anyways, Im gonna finish my glass of plum loco wine, and sit by a fan c uz its hot as shit in this town right now.

Love to you all


Andru

June 15, 2009

Busy Busy Life.

Well kids, here's the scoop.

Life is crazy and hell and Im trying to stay focused. I have signed up for my summer session for college, more english and math...FUN. I have a bunch on new friends which is so cool and also so very sad because I made them right as I am preparing to leave. But the ones who were meant to stay friends, will.

I have a moving date. My furniture and belongings will be moving to San Diego on July 1st...which holy fuck is like two weeks away OMG. I, however, will be staying in the 805 until July 12th. Yay Dog Sitting. Some people ask "why the hell would you stay to hang with a dog? Here's why: A... Skylar is not just a dog, he is the biggest dumbest ball of white furry love you will ever meet, he is awesome, and B...that's $600 bucks I was NOT gonna turn down. I am not stupid. SO I have much to do in two weeks. I leave tomorrow morning for San Diego with my dear friend and future roommate Katie (A.K.A. Sizzerwinkie) to check out a few properties we found. Hopefully one of them will be my new home. Then I get to start packing. Well, mostly throwing things out....then packing. HA. I have too much crap and don't wanna lug it to San Diego. I want the fresh start that everyone raves about, and I intend to lighten the load and start fresh.

I am also still fighting to get student loans, ugh, f my life. Thanks to one of my newest and greatest friends Nicole (A.K.A. Nibbles) I am in love with a new website. Textsfromlastnight.com is amazing. its funny as hell and become the newest funny thing my friends and I do to each other on facebook. OH, Im on facebook, b-t-dubs.

....Im also on twitter, feel free to follow me. AndruMonster. grr argh. ha

So with planning the move, getting money, spending time with my friends, and helping my mom with stuff, I keep pretty busy. Did I mention I quit my job? heh it was a mess but totally worth it. I couldnt handle the bullshit there anymore, and decided, that since I was going to be moving ANYWAY...I said peace out.

Lets see what else.... OH yeah so Ive decided that even though most people who read this KNOW how my voice sounds and how I talk and how big a spazz I am, Im going to be less concerned about how well this blog is written. I figure, if you can carry a conversation with me, then reading this should be a breeze. This blog will no longer be well thought out and carefully put together, its going to be just like my brain, spazztic, A.D.D. and random.

There is a shirt at Marshall's my friend bought, and its amazing. it says "Gold Teef for ERRbody" You should find it, and buy it.

So now that that is cleared up, lets see what else should I mention....

My mom had a stroke on May 2nd. Very sad, very hard to deal with BUT she is expected to make a full recovery in time and is doing SO much better. I can't tell you how scary and heart breaking it was to see her so miserable in the hospital. Almost as heart breaking as is it to see my 49 yr old mother using a walker to move around the house. I keep telling myself that soon she will be back to her old self and life will be back to normal and only get better.

Im talking to boys. go me.

I'll be honest, there is more than one. Hear me out... they are all far away from me, and even though I like them all very much, I havent stopped talking to any of them yet because I havent met them. If I meet one of them and it gets serious then I will talk to the others and say "hey, sorry, it just wasnt meant to be lets be friends" But for the time being, I am just that...friends with them.

There is one however, who occupies almost my every thought. Even though I havent met him, I miss him....terribly. We are planning on meeting in the next month or so, and I am very VERY excited. He knows who he is, and he reads this blog. **hi kisses :-)**

I still have my bad ass super sexy Honda. Gettin better everyday, love her.
School kinda sucked a little this past semester. I think it was just that I started too early, focusing on school with the move and work and then what happened with my mommy, was just too much, and I couldnt focus on school, so I dropped my classes before I got a bad grade, and am retaking them both this summer. So for those of you who are gonna get all "wtf?!?!?!" and scowl and be all disapproving, SAVE IT. I dont wanna hear it. I would rather recognize that I was not able to devote myself properly to my two classes, drop them before I get a failing grade and negatively effect my GPA, and retake them when I can devote myself. So Starting July...uhh...July 6th I think, Im back in the class. So dont worry people, I'm not fucking anything up.

Well its 1am here, and Im being picked up by Sizzerwinkie McTofu in 8 and a half hours to head to san diego, I should probably pack and get some sleep.

For those of you who noticed, YES I am aware of my blatant lack of apostrophe's in words like "dont, couldnt, wouldnt, havent, and wasnt".... just FYI...I dont give a fuck. Im lazy, and he way I see it, CAN YOU READ IT? DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT SAYS?? then thats all that matters, shut yer face you grammar nazi. hahahhha

I love your freakin' faces off!!!


Andru

June 4, 2009

Resignation

Im about to quit my job and walk out. Im sick of the crap and sick of the bullshit and sick of the job itself. Im moving in 4 weeks, how much longer do I really even need this job? Im going get my loans and say PEACE OUT. I hate this place with a fiery passion.
Ive decided that I will come into work tomorrow, but NOT Monday. Im going to leave a message Saturday saying that I wont make it Monday, and Monday Im taking my co-signer to the bank and gettin my god damned loan. I will ask the loan officer "when will the check be in my hand?" and if its within 10 days or so...Im never stepping foot in this place again.

Thanks, I needed to vent.

May 28, 2009

So sleepy

Well, here I am, at 2:56am awake. dear god I am so tired but I have a drunk friend who is due to call me at any moment for a ride home, and if he doesn't call soon, I swear to god Im gonna tell him to call a cab.

I want to sleep. Thank god Im not going to work tomorrow otherwise I would be LIVID.

There is a good reason for my not going to work tomorrow though...my mommy is FINALLY getting out of the hospital. After a month long ordeal, recovering from her (thankfully) minor stroke, she is well, she is healing beautifully and she is being discharged tomorrow! SO I took the day off to be with my mommy. YAY.

Other than that, life is still hectic. Still moving to San Diego in a month. I can't believe its really happening. I cant believe Im finally moving away from Camarillo. Its so strange. Ive been here pretty much my whole life. Its gonna be scary but Im gonna do everything in my power to make it work and make it a successful life change.

WELL, Im gonna text that drunken fool and see if he is ready to go, cuz I am DONE waiting.

PEACE OUT, hope you all have restful nights.